Successful Happy Life

As the title suggest, this post is really going to be complex. I myself don't know what all I want to write; just that I want to write something and in that process; I want it to be readable (worthy to read). 

Ok, so life is not going as I wanted it to be. This is not all for which I have studied so much or have taken so much of pain. The worst part is that I don't know what else should I have done to make it a Successful Happy Life. I am graduated from best of the colleges of India and married to the best person of this world; but still I am unhappy. So I really don't what better could have happened to have a Successful Happy Life.

Then I ask myself is there someone around me whose life I would like to swap with mine or I want to be in his/her shoes. But the answer comes no. So again I end up thinking what should I have done to make my life a Successful Happy Life.

Sometimes, I go philosophical and make myself understand that happiness is nothing material; its just your state of mind. You can feel amazing in a worst place and miserable in the most royal palace with all luxuries. I don't know from where I have acquired this wisdom; but then I again have a question- how to acquire that state of mind to lead a successful Happy Life.

Its long since anything good happened in my life or if at all it happened, I am not able to recognize and acknowledge it. 

And, now I have this hesitation to share this post because I don't want the whole world to know that I am not living 'The Successful Happy Life'. I want them to know me only through my FB pics and happy BBM status.

In the meanwhile, will keep looking the mantra of 'Successful Happy Life'. You let me know if you know that.

That's not me

One thing which I realise is that I need lots of push to drive myself to write and that push come through extreme emotions flowing in my head. Where my first post was the result of lots of positive thoughts, this 2nd post is a result of lots of turmoil happening in my professional life.

People around me tell me that why don't you learn to be a leader, an 'Always Politically Correct' person, cracking the deals (and showing you are the only one doing them), doing lots of PR starting from the peon of your company to the CEO of the largest FMCG company of India and becoming the 'Business Tycoon' of the world- you know the one everyone wants to be in their professional life. But That's not me; that's not the goal of my life and definitely not the reason of me being in this world. That's not me and I don't wan to be either. Because when I die and even if I am the CEO of the largest media company of Asia Pacific (that's the best I can think of basis on the kind of education and professional experience I have acquired so far); that won't make me happy. 

Rather I want to spend some memorable moments with you- just you and me (no calls on my phone, pings on my laptop or update on my BBM); I want to have some crazy trips with my friends; I want to exercise my ass off; I want to learn dancing/horse riding/swimming/skating bla bla bla. I haven't seen Mount Everest so far; haven't been  to seven wonders of world and haven't studied at Harvard School (First big university came to my mind; no other reason). I know I won't be able to do all this because I want to be what others want me to be. But, That's not me.

So, please don't push me. Because whatever best I will do; I won't become that. That's not me.